Thoughts. Feelings.

The saddest and most heartbreaking thing for a mother is to witness having spent tremendous effort to provide for her child from conceive to birth, infant to toddler, a kid to a youth, and the kid starts ruining himself day by day by corrupting his sleep hours, skipping meals, not interested in eating well, not interested in facial care and grooming, not putting his best to live life the fullest, reduce performance in academic, not cultivating the right values, not responding to expectations ... It is really painful and disappointing.

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It is with regret that I learnt this late... I learned and surrendered to admit that things that cannot be changed will never change. As a result, we need to be enlightened enough to see life in a wider perspective, do what we can to adjust and adapt, and make the best of what we have and can do. Work around the situation. Each time we are enlightened enough to survive through a situation, it is a milestone achievement. This kind of milestone can only be deeply felt and understood if you go through the same thing yourself. Some lessons can only be learned through minds of the same kind.

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Life gets more restricted when your teeth starts going through gum recession, thinking that the teeth will fall off anytime soon, throat feels like building up negative ions at the back of it, joints start getting inflammed too easily even just shopping, back feels like shattering into broken bone pieces anytime if u work too hard on sweeping or mopping, fingers start telling you that more cooking is damaging to the small index muscles, bunions stopping u from pretty shoes.... I start asking myself very seriously: how much does my children appreciate me, for so much that I have done for them?

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